I never thought I’d be here. Not for him. Not after everything. But here I am, in a beautifully manicured garden, the scent of roses cloying, watching my older brother get married. I grip the champagne flute in my hand so tightly my knuckles are white. Just breathe. Get through it. For Mom and Dad. That’s what I told myself in the mirror this morning.
He always had it easy. The golden child. Effortlessly charming, effortlessly successful. And me? Always in his shadow. A shadow that grew cold and vast when he stole her. M. My first love. My everything. We were inseparable, planning a future. I was saving for a ring. Then he swooped in, charismatic and relentless. She left me for him. Just like that. It wasn’t just heartbreak; it was a betrayal that splintered our family, creating a chasm between us that ten years of polite, strained holiday gatherings couldn’t bridge.
We barely spoke for a decade. A curt nod, a forced smile. The pain was a dull ache, always there, a constant reminder of what he took. I told myself I was over it, over her. But the bitterness, oh, that festered. It was a poison I carried, a secret weight. I came to this wedding today, not for joy, but for closure. To finally put it all behind me, even if it meant watching him get his picture-perfect ending.
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The ceremony was a blur. My heart hammered against my ribs, a trapped bird. Don’t look at him. Don’t look at her. His new wife. She’s beautiful, radiant in white. A stranger to me. I watched them exchange vows, a familiar pang of loneliness mixed with the old resentment. He always gets the pretty ones, doesn’t he?
Later, at the reception, the music was too loud, the laughter too bright. I stood by the open bar, pretending to be absorbed by the intricate floral arrangements. I saw him weaving through the crowd, heading my way. My breath hitched. Here it comes. Another superficial exchange. Another reminder of the chasm. My hand instinctively tightened on my glass again.
He stopped in front of me, a small, tentative smile on his face. His eyes, usually so confident, seemed… softer. Unsure. “Hey,” he said, his voice a little hoarse. “Can we talk? Just for a minute?”
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My heart pounded. This was new. This wasn’t the usual dismissive nod. I nodded, wary. He led me to a quiet corner of the expansive garden, near a fountain where the gentle splashing provided a welcome buffer from the revelry. He turned to me, his gaze direct.
“Look,” he began, “I know… I know I hurt you. Badly.” His voice cracked. “With M.”
My entire body went rigid. The name. Uttered by him. After all these years. I braced myself for a casual brush-off, a hollow apology. But what came next shattered every expectation.
“I was a fool,” he confessed, his eyes welling up. “A selfish, arrogant fool. I saw how happy you two were, how much you loved her. And I… I was jealous. Of you. Of your genuine kindness, your easy laughter. I always felt like I had to work harder for everything, to prove myself, even though everyone always put me on a pedestal.” He rubbed the back of his neck, his gaze dropping to the ground. “And I took it out on you. I knew what I was doing, brother. I knew how much she meant to you, and I still… I still did it. It was the most despicable thing I’ve ever done.”
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A wave of something I hadn’t felt in a decade washed over me: pure, unadulterated shock. Then, slowly, a crack appeared in the wall I’d built around my heart. He’s admitting it. He’s admitting he knew. Tears welled in my own eyes, hot and unexpected. This wasn’t just a generic apology. This was a confession. A raw, honest truth I’d always longed for, always doubted I’d ever hear.
He looked up, his eyes bloodshot. “I know it doesn’t excuse anything. And I know you probably hate me. You have every right to. But I regret it. Every single day. I hurt you, and it was unforgivable.”
My breath hitched. The bitterness, the resentment, the suffocating weight I’d carried for so long… it began to lift. It was like watching a decade of darkness slowly recede, revealing a faint, fragile light. He sees me. He truly sees the pain he caused.
“I… I don’t hate you,” I managed to choke out, my voice thick with emotion.
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He stepped forward, tentatively, then enveloped me in a tight hug. It was clumsy, hesitant at first, then firm, desperate. For a moment, we were just two brothers, raw and vulnerable, the years of unspoken pain finally acknowledged. I felt his shoulders shaking, and I realized he was crying too. I squeezed him back, feeling the last vestiges of my resentment melt away. Finally. We can heal. We can be brothers again. It was a release, a catharsis I never knew I desperately needed. The wedding day, which I had dreaded, was becoming a day of profound healing.
We pulled apart, both wiping our eyes, a fragile, hopeful smile on his face. “Thank you,” he whispered, his voice thick. “For… for everything.”
Just then, his new wife, radiant in her gown, approached us, her smile bright. “There you are, my love! I was wondering where you’d gone.” She put her arm through his. My brother beamed, his eyes sparkling with a renewed joy.
“And there’s something else, little brother,” he said, turning back to me, his smile broadening. He looked at his bride, then back at me, a mischievous glint in his eye. He squeezed her hand. “Something I’ve waited so long to share with you.”
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My heart swelled with a strange mix of joy for him and relief for us. He’s going to talk about a fresh start. About family.
He took a deep breath, his chest visibly expanding. “Remember M?” he asked, his gaze fixed on me, his smile never faltering.
My chest tightened again, but this time, it was different. Not pain, but a surge of understanding. He’s going to say he learned his lesson, that he realized love isn’t something you steal.
He looked at his bride, then back at me, his eyes gleaming with profound happiness. “Well,” he said, his voice full of pure, unadulterated bliss, “after all these years, after my first marriage fell apart… she came back into my life. And I knew, this time, I couldn’t let her go.”
My breath caught. I stared at him, then at the beautiful woman beside him. She looked familiar, intensely familiar. The way her eyes crinkled when she smiled. The faint mole above her lip. The exact shade of blonde.
NO. IT COULDN’T BE.
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My eyes darted between him and her, a cold dread seeping into my veins, spreading like ice.
“Brother, meet my wife,” he said, his arm tightening around her. “My beautiful, wonderful M.”
The world tilted. The music, the laughter, the clinking of glasses – it all faded into a deafening roar. The roses suddenly smelled sickly sweet, suffocating. The healing, the forgiveness, the catharsis… it wasn’t real. It was a lie. A cruel, elaborate, horrifying setup. He hadn’t been apologizing for stealing her from me. He had been apologizing for losing her. For the years they weren’t together. And now, he wanted me to witness his ultimate victory. His second chance with the woman he’d stolen from me, the woman who had always been my future. My legs felt like jelly. I stood there, rooted to the spot, my entire being screaming.
HE IS MARRYING M.
THE WOMAN I WAS GOING TO MARRY.
AND HIS APOLOGY WAS FOR HER, NOT FOR ME.
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The bitter taste was back, stronger than ever, mixed with a sickening sense of vertigo. The wound wasn’t healed. It had been ripped wide open, a gaping, festering chasm even deeper than before. And I had just thanked him for it. I had just embraced him. I had just watched him get everything, again. And I realized, with a horrifying clarity, that he would always win. He would always take. And I would always be the one left shattered in his perfect, beautiful, venomous shadow.
