They say I’m lucky. They always say that. It’s a whispered blessing, a backhanded compliment, a judgment all rolled into one. “You hit the jackpot,” they’ll murmur, their eyes sweeping over my clothes, the expensive bag I carry, the sleek car in the driveway that’s technically ours. They see the beautiful house, the trips abroad, the effortless ease with which I seem to glide through life. They see a woman who doesn’t work, who doesn’t have to work. They see someone living a dream.If only they knew.
The weight of their assumptions presses down on me, heavy and suffocating. At family gatherings, my sister-in-law will joke, “Must be nice, having a permanent vacation.” My own mother, bless her heart, once said, “You always were good at finding a comfortable spot.” It’s not malicious, not exactly. It’s just… a truth they’ve constructed for me, piece by piece, based on what they think they see. Based on the man I married, his success, his generosity. Based on the fact that I don’t have a nine-to-five, don’t have a career path anyone can point to, don’t have a purpose they can comprehend.
I just spend his money. That’s the prevailing narrative. I’m the pretty accessory, the well-kept secret. And sometimes, in the dark hours, I almost believe it myself.The truth is, I wake up before him every single day. Not to prepare for a power lunch or a gym class, but to check. To make sure he’s still breathing evenly. To make sure he hasn’t had another episode in the night, the tremors sometimes so subtle they’re almost imperceptible. I watch him sleep, counting the precious, peaceful minutes before the day begins, before the mask goes on. His mask. And mine.
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He’s brilliant, charming, a force of nature in his public life. He runs a company, closes deals, inspires his team. No one, absolutely no one, would ever suspect. And that’s the way he wants it. That’s the way it has to be.
The trips we take? They’re not frivolous escapes. They’re meticulously planned adventures, designed to create as many perfect, vibrant memories as possible. Because we don’t know how many more we’ll get. We chase sunsets, explore ancient cities, taste exotic foods – all while I’m secretly monitoring his medication schedule, noting every slight stumble, every confused pause, every fleeting moment of disorientation. I learn the emergency numbers in every foreign city, map out the nearest hospitals, and pack a second, hidden bag of specialized supplies.
The expensive clothes? They cover a multitude of sins. They’re a shield, a distraction. They create an image of effortless perfection, so no one looks too closely at the tremor in my hand when I pour his coffee, or the permanent shadow beneath my eyes. They’re part of the illusion we’ve meticulously crafted, the one that tells the world: Everything is fine. More than fine. It’s idyllic.
Inside this beautiful, spacious home, my days are a relentless choreography of care. He forgets things. Names, dates, simple instructions. Sometimes he gets lost in our own house. Sometimes, the frustration boils over, and he lashes out. Not with malice, but with fear. A raw, primal fear that tears at his dignity, and at my heart. I’m his memory, his calendar, his calm in the storm of his own mind. I manage his appointments, his specialists, his experimental treatments. I research, I advocate, I fight. All in secret.
“You’re so lucky,” my friend laughed just last week, swirling her wine. “I swear, you have the easiest life. What do you even do all day?”
Katy Perry and Justin Trudeau off the coast of Santa Barbara, California, posted on October 13, 2025. | Source: Instagram/pagesix
I smiled. A practiced, easy smile. “Oh, you know,” I said, shrugging lightly. “Just keeping things running.”
The words tasted like ash. Keeping things running. Yes. Like a sinking ship, I thought. Keeping it afloat for as long as humanly possible, while the passengers dance on deck, oblivious.
Sometimes, late at night, when he’s finally fallen into an exhausted sleep, I allow myself to break. I sit in the dark, the only sound the hum of the refrigerator, and I cry. Silent tears that burn down my cheeks, for the man he was, for the future we lost, for the loneliness that wraps around me like a shroud. I mourn the life I could have had, the career I put on hold, the identity I willingly shed. Because he needed me. He needed me to be strong. He needed me to be invisible.
The doctors gave us five years. That was three years ago.
Every day is a gift. Every smile, every lucid conversation, every shared laugh is a victory. But it’s also a countdown. A cruel, relentless countdown that echoes in the silence of this beautiful, empty house. Every luxurious item, every grand gesture, every seemingly carefree moment is a desperate attempt to fill the void, to outrun the inevitable, to create a final, glorious tapestry of a life well-lived.
My greatest fear isn’t losing him. My greatest fear is that when he’s gone, and the truth comes out, the whispers won’t change. That they’ll still look at the woman who had “the easy life,” who “just spent his money,” and never, EVER, understand the profound, soul-crushing sacrifice I made. That they’ll never know the constant, agonizing pain of watching the person you love disappear, piece by agonizing piece, while pretending to the world that you are the luckiest woman alive.
HE HAS EARLY-ONSET ALZHEIMER’S.
Orlando Bloom and Katy Perry at the MTV Video Music Awards at UBS Arena on September 11, 2024 in Elmont, New York. | Source: Getty Images
And I am his shield, his memory, his keeper. I am his final, most devoted love. And I would do it all again. EVERY SINGLE BIT OF IT. Even if it means carrying the weight of their assumptions for the rest of my life. Because the alternative, the truth, would break his heart. And mine.
